A Good Woman is Hard to Find

The Message Bible says: A good woman is hard to find, and worth far more than diamonds. Her husband trusts her without reserve, and never has reason to regret it. Never spiteful, she treats him generously all her life long. I pulled this information from Proverbs 31 about the Virtuous Woman. Proverbs also talks about 2 other types of women in Proverbs 2:16-19; 23:27,28. I recognize all three women. Two of the women are pretty good examples of the woman I was and the first woman, the virtuous woman, is the woman I am destined to become one day. The other woman is a Seductress (temptress). Although I have never been married, it talks about her not respecting her husband and doing things that are not of God. I have done a lot of things that I am not very proud of but I know God has forgiven me. I have had sexual relationships with men and I have disrespected my body. I have used my body as a playground and opened it up to the risk of diseases. Although not physically, but I have allowed my body to be used, abused and bruised by men for sexual purposes. I knew it was wrong but I did what I wanted to do. It felt good and bottom line, I didn't care. I was on this destructive path in my life. I was disrespecting my aunt, I was ruining my life. I have always been smart and I allowed these things to even keep me from finishing college. I have knowingly slept with married men. I didn't care because I wanted what I wanted and nothing else mattered. I knew things were getting bad when I started to doubt the existence of God. I was getting depressed and I was lonely. I was having meaningless relationships with men that were based on sex and what I could do for them. All of that mentioned was over six years ago from 2000-2006. That was a long time to be on a fast moving roller coaster down. I moved out of my aunt's house in 2005 and into the apartment with a friend I met at work. She had a son and I considered her my sister. We both conducted ourselves in ways we shouldn't but we started to try to clean it up. We joined a church together because I had left my church. It was a good church and to this day, I will admit it was a good experience for me. My Pastor there was a good man and he took the time to talk to us both and counsel us. My church that I attend now has been my church for years. It is my family's church but I have always felt like I was limited to what I could do. I enjoyed my new church because if I needed Godly counsel, I could get it from my Pastor. When my friend and I wanted to start a young women's ministry to help the young girls in the church, we talked to him about it. He was all for it. I still would love to have a ministry where I could counsel young ladies about things and help them any way I could. That is still on my heart four years later and I will one day. When I found out I was pregnant, I went and sat down and talked to him. He didn't talk down to me but he was honest with me and I appreciate that. After I had my daughter, I made the immediate decision that I had to stop the things I was doing. My family has always been there for me and I am grateful from my sisters to my aunt to my brother-in-law. My aunt is not married but she has always conducted herself so gracefully. She trusts in God and she is wise because of it. I have been reading about the virtuous woman for many years now. I have always told myself that being like her is my goal in life. It hasn't been until now that I feel like I am ready to grow into that woman with God as my guide. He has allowed so much to happen to me but I never broke down because of it because he kept me safe. He has whipped me but he hugged me at the same time. He has blessed me beyond anything I could ever imagine even though I didn't deserve it. I feel I am a good woman but I know I could be so much better. I want to be a better mother, daughter, sister, companion and especially a better Christian. I realize today's woman is very independent and it is very good. I also feel like the old school woman is too. She is the woman who take care of her family. She makes sure her children are fed, the homework is done and they have clean clothes. She also makes she her husband is taken care of and she respects him. He is the head of the house and she is there beside him. He should never abuse her or disrespect her and he should love her with all his heart as God loves him. God should be the center of their marriage. I want to have a marriage like that. I know there will be ups and downs but I know as long as God is in the center, we will pull through it stronger than ever. I will be a supportive wife and mother. I know God will bless us. I am just happy that God never gave up for me and that someone was always praying for me because instead of being the strange woman or the ruthless woman, I am on the path of being a Virtuous Woman. Charm can mislead and beauty soon fades. The woman to be admired and praised is the woman who lives in the Fear-of-God.