I WANT THE TITLE

DISCLAIMER: THIS POST IS NOT WRITTEN TO INVOKE ANY THOUGHTS THAT MAY BE PERSONALLY RELATED TO ME. IT IS BASED ON MY PAST EXPERIENCES IN THIS SITUATION... HAPPY READING Y'ALL

So, I am in my car today and I decide to change the CD in my CD player because it has been permanently set to my MJ CD for like ever and ever.... lol I decided to put in my Ciara CD. I think It's titled My Goodies or it was her first CD. She has a song called "Title" or "I want the title" or whatever but basically she is saying,

"I want the title, I wanna be known as your girl, I wanna kick it with you like your best friend."

I have been in that situation where I was everything to a man but I still did not have the title. I know a lot of guys feel that once a woman has a title, things change. That's not true for all women. What you see is what you get. If you have seen her at her lowest, I guarantee once she has the title of your girl, she will not change. Now, don't get me wrong, some females will totally change on you and have you looking like "where in the hell did this chick come from." She will have you thinking she's the devil incarnate...lol. I know a few guys who have had women in their lives exclusively who did not have the title but desperately wanted it. I understand both sides. If you are working a lot or going to school or something, you really don't want a committed relationship. Committed relationships can cause stress and issues within the relationship which in turn will cause stress at work or school that isn't needed. So, I get that. That is usually the man's view on it. Then you have the woman. She feels that if she is doing everything for him and being the friend, supporting him, understanding him, dealing with him when he is stressing that she deserves the title. Maybe she does. Maybe she doesn't. It just all depends on how much you are willing to take and if you are willing to take the risk of the possibility that after it all you just may never have that title.

I am a strong believer in allowing me to show you that this could work and just because we are committed doesn't take away from you, it guarantees you ME!! Having ME is a good thing...lol. I do believe it is good to take the time to get to know someone on a friend level. You can decide if it is worth staying in the friendship zone or if it could be more. However, you have to know when to take it to the next level regardless of what is going on. Because you can't have your cake and eat it too.. right B??

To Teach or Not To teach

For a long time I've had the desire to go to back to school. I decided to do something about it. I was filling out the application and it asked my major. I set there and I thought about it. I knew I wanted to do education in spite of my love for Accounting. The next thought was easy too and that was choosing if I wanted to do elementary or secondary education. I immediately thought about Hannah and went with secondary. I love my child and little children but being in a classroom with them, NO INDEED!! LOL... The next step was deciding my concentration. I thought about English and decided against that. I am corrected by 2 people in my life so often that I knew that wasn't my field...lol. English teachers are cool and they are usually the ones who handle extracurricular activities such as yearbook and newspaper. I was on the yearbook staff in high school and I really enjoyed it, but I'm not that teacher... My favorite teachers were my history and physics/chemistry teachers. Anyone who knows me know that I am DEFINITELY not leaning toward science....lol. I chose History. She always made it soooo interesting. When I think about my history teachers in middle school, I realize they were also my favorites.

I love the thrill and the excitement of history. I love reading about it and even watching it unfold every single day of my life. I look forward to having my future students choose a person in history and stand before me and their classmates and present it to us. I look forward to the day I will walk in class dressed up like Cleopatra on the day we start studying Egyptian history. I still have some time before I am there but I am focused on doing what I need to do to get there. I have applied for FAFSA and I am eligible for GRANTS!!! YAY!!! THANK GOD!!!! I still have some things I need to work through but I will get it done.

There is a con side to this of course. I was talking to my sister about teaching. She says she enjoys teaching, some times but it is hard. Children of today or rude and disrespectful and the parent's aren't any better. There was a time that if your teacher called your mother about something, you could guarantee your mom would side with your teacher and a good ole spanking would be waiting when you got home. Now, this is only true if your teacher was a good and caring teacher because there are teachers out there who do not care at all about their students. It's a paycheck. I pray that I can inspire children to want to learn about history and I also pray I have parents who will have their child's best interest at heart as I would as their teacher.

My first blog

I decided to start a blog after talking to a friend who said he was resisting the urge to start a twitter account. I could totally relate to him on that but I am really trying to stay away from those type of sites. So, I did a google search for a site where I could create my blog and I could write my own thoughts and invite my friends of my choice to view my thoughts and comment if they please.

I think blogs are good when you just have the need to write something but you kind of have this desire to share it with others with hopes of sparking a conversation. Maybe in the process you will receive some good advice, learn something new, etc. I have a lot on my mind and I do believe my thoughts, although not crazy, could get me in trouble. It may show that sometimes I feel I am not as strong as I like to be sometimes. It may show that I question why I have such patience and drive to be so supportive and understanding of people without hesitation. It's like I can just put my feelings to the side and risk a broken heart just to be that supportive person that a special someone may need. I will admit that 95% of the time I am okay and I feel I am doing the right thing by not being selfish. There is no doubt of how much I care for the person and I want them to always know that and never lose sight that I am still human and have feelings too. I may not always be cool and calm but know that I always try my hardest to do so.

I know that I will go deeper into those thoughts a little later but I did want to start my first blog on this page and get things popping....