How do I describe how I feel... Let's just say, I know I'm walking but it's not on air.
I feel like my whole body has a charlie horse... yeah, that bad.
My goal is to lose 25-30 pounds or more by May 24th. That's 3 days before my birthday.
My next goal is to match whatever I lose and add 10lbs by August or September.
Then I want to match what I lost in August plus 10lbs and lose that by the Christmas
party in New Orleans. I won't be at my idea weight
My trainer Cedric is dedicated so I feel I should be as well. I'm motivated. I have to lose
weight. I'm healthy, but I want to stay healthy. I want to be happier and I know
this sounds crazy, but I do want my little girl to be able to put her arms all the way
around my waist.
My eating habits are terrible. So, no more McDonald's, Burger King, nachos from Circle K
with an icee. I could go on, but I really don't want to at this point. Oh yeah, I have to mention
no more cookie slices from Mrs. Field's. That's gonna be hard but I know I can do it. My pocket
book can't handle Lane Bryant prices anymore.
My dimensions are pretty clear. I'm 5'3" and over 200lbs. I won't be precise but as I lose,
I will give more information. I should be 5'3 and less than 150lbs I believe. Baby steps though.
Am I ready for day 2, hell no but I have to do this. My life, health and my daughter depends on it.
See you tomorrow.
Tuesday, April 3, 2012
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
Waiting for God
When I was 9 years old, I accepted Jesus Christ as my Savior. Since that day, I can admit that my faith has wavered a bit. I have questioned my belief and the realness of God as well. Today, I have no doubt that God is real and even during my hardest times, I maintain faith. I always remind myself that all I need is faith the size of a mustard seed.
I've been dealing with a lot of things the past few years. I've learned a lot. When I start to stress about things, I remember that all I should do is just patiently wait for God. When I do that, He always works things out for me. I had to be reminded of that again. When it comes to matters of the heart, I'm a bit sensitive. I don't like to be hurt or heartbroken. I don't enjoy being in love with someone who doesn't love me back. However, I know that God will work that out for me too.
I was driving to work this morning when it hit me. I needed to just step back and be quiet and just wait. Wait without any preconceived emotions or thoughts. Wait without causing chaos and drama. I only want things done right and that would be to just wait for God to do them for me and when the time is right, He will make it clear to me. He always has been very clear about things. I have faith that what is going on with me right now will work out just fine.
I've been dealing with a lot of things the past few years. I've learned a lot. When I start to stress about things, I remember that all I should do is just patiently wait for God. When I do that, He always works things out for me. I had to be reminded of that again. When it comes to matters of the heart, I'm a bit sensitive. I don't like to be hurt or heartbroken. I don't enjoy being in love with someone who doesn't love me back. However, I know that God will work that out for me too.
I was driving to work this morning when it hit me. I needed to just step back and be quiet and just wait. Wait without any preconceived emotions or thoughts. Wait without causing chaos and drama. I only want things done right and that would be to just wait for God to do them for me and when the time is right, He will make it clear to me. He always has been very clear about things. I have faith that what is going on with me right now will work out just fine.
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