Too Thru!!!!

Some people really irritate the hell out of me. You sit there and you listen about

all their crazy friends, their career and blah blah blah and they have the nerve to say

they don't want to hear about someone in your life!!! It hurts because you would NEVER

do that to them. Scratch this... Let's speak in the first person. I have listened so much

about all these deranged females and NEVER ONCE did I say, I don't want to hear

that. Don't ever bring them up. Although they were not important in my life, they were

obviously important to him in some way. As a friend, I listened. I NEVER put a limit on

what we could discuss. Some of these people I feel I have met them and I am dealing with

them myself because of how often I have to hear about them.

He is the best confused person I know but he pretends he has it together. He doesn't.

You are meeting female after female and now you are at the lowest point of dating some female

who you don't know and who is TOO DAMN YOUNG!!!!! She is immature and silly. She is a

hot ass and she ain't the one. Why keep falling for these same females... Why not focus on your

career???? I don't get this at all... I really, truly don't get this. It's stupid. He is attracted

to someone making him laugh over skype. You don't know how this chick is during hard times.

She probably haven't had hard times yet other than what college course to take. ARE YOU INSANE????

I have come to the realization that it is indeed time for me to move on. Our season is over. I am tired. I have nothing more to give. You want me to stop talking about someone who is important to me in my life, then you don't want to talk to me either. I am too thru.

I really needed to say all this in my post... it's mine and it's how I feel. I will reconvene with the posts that will enlighten tomorrow but today, I am pissed OFF!!!

The Process of Elimination

I made the decision in 2010 to remove a lot of things from my life. One did happen to be my job at AEP and the other was guys. Men who didn't mean well. Men who only wanted one thing for me . They didn't benefit me in any way. It was easy to do. I have stood my ground strong against the temptations. I want what is in store for me. I don't want to waste my time. I learned that sometimes we pray and God immediately answers it but it is up to us to determine how soon we will get to that answer in which we prayed. I have seen the man God has for me. I've dreamt of him twice. I can't see his face but the idea that I have someone waiting for me to love and adore me excites me. Every time I hesitate in not answering my phone or a text or allowing someone to come over who doesn't want but one thing, I think of my dreams. I will sacrifice moments of pleasure for a lifetime of love and loyalty. I will be patient and wait. We shall see. In the meantime, I have done the process of elimination and if I must, I will continue to do so.

Rejuvenation

It has been a long time since I wrote anything in my blog. I guess I haven't been

that inspired. A lot has happened in all of this time. Some things good and other things not so good. I am no longer employed at AEP. That's the positive side of it for me. The fact that it has been over 2 months and I haven't found a job, that's the not so good part. I never would have imagined

it would have been this difficult to find a job. I am feeling okay. I am not worried much. I am on the search for a job. A lot of interviews but no job yet. This is my opportunity to really do something I will enjoy and something that will allow career advancement. I have goals. I don't want to be rich, just comfortable.

In regards to relationships, I am not in one. I have an interest in someone but I am not sure if the interest is shared. We will see. I am sure I will be writing about that very soon.