Farewell March 2010

This month has been such a difficult month for me and I am more than delighted to bid it farewell today. I don't know if April will be better but I have faith and pray to God it will be much better. This month has been full of heartbreak, confusion, disrespect and pain. Taken advantage of in so many ways and just trying to deal with everything. Trying to stay strong through it all no matter what. I have cried a lot this month. I even cried yesterday. My mom's birthday was yesterday. She would have been 67 years old if she were alive. Wishing her a Happy Birthday. I am still focused on the positive of things and leaving March behind. Of course learning the lessons that March has brought and leaving the rest behind. I had to respect decisions made by others regardless of my opinion of it. I had to get over one of the worse things that has ever happened to me in a week in order to continue on and not dwell on it but focus on moving forward with life. My heart is broken, yes, but it's not the first time and may not be the last although I pray it will be the last time. I don't know what the future holds or if I have learned the right lesson that I should. I do have a desire to share my heart with someone who will love me the same or more than I love him. I want to be in love with someone who loves me back. I want to be someone who want to be with me minus all the confusion and pain and drama. I'm not a victim but I have been hurt and I didn't see it coming. I'm dealing with it alone but it's okay because God has given me the strength to indure. I don't plan to mention this again in April. April will be better than this month. SO, goodbye and farewell March 2010. I will never see you again but your lessons will be embedded in my life forever.