Still Standing but Standing Still

I'm still standing. Through all obstacles, heartaches and let downs, I'm still standing. This month has been a rough month but thanks to God I'm still standing strong. My heart is on the mend and I am going to be okay. I prayed and I am standing still. I won't move until God tells me to move. I won't make any decisions until He tell me otherwise. I am going to stand still. Things are happening for a reason in my life. I don't know the reason but God definitely has my attention. I'm listening Lord. I want to do things right according to His will. I was hurt earlier and I had already decided I would have a bad day. Thank God for friends. God has blessed me with good friends. Friends who also depend and trust in God. So, while at work, I was feeling way down and honestly I just didn't know what I should do. A lot of things crossed my mind but I decided a long time ago I wouldn't make any decisions while I was stressed or emotional. I'm not going to ask myself "why I didn't see it coming" or "why did this happen now" anymore I don't know. I am not going to dwell on why. I'm not going to make myself believe anything will come of it. I will just move forward and wait for God to tell me what to do next with this I situation and in life. I am tired of wondering. Alicia Keys says, "yes, I was burned but I called it a lesson learned... mistake overturned but I called it a lesson learned, my my soul has returned so I called it a lesson learned, a lesson learned." All is well with me. I still desire to be a good woman, a better woman and a better Christian. I don't want to ask God why because He knows what's best for me. I trust him with all my heart. I may not be the best or the happiest but my Joy is strong and I have peace within and that's something that no one can steal from me. No matter how many times my heart is broken, my joy cannot be taken.