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I am at work and I thought I would go back to read my last post on here. I was pretty angry. I feel I was hurt more than anything about things. I think I wanted him to reach out to me but he didn't. I would listen how people in his life would quit talking to him for whatever reason and how he would reach out to them. I figured he would do the same for me, but he didn't. That's what I was feeling that day. As days rolled on, we ignored each other. We co-existed. Did I still care, yes. Do I still care, of course. It's hard to just stop caring about someone. I think I had to come to the realization that I need to really depend on God. I feel it is nice to have friends. It's a blessing when you can find one that is genuine. Unfortunately, it is very difficult to do so. What I learned from that is something I will teach my daughter. You can't make someone care or love you. You be the best person you can be. You should be a friend to someone and be there for someone. Never allow them to use you. If you find that you are being used, it is okay to walk away. Never be rude or stoop to their level of stupidity. My friend and I shared a lot of good times together. In less than two years, we had gone through some things that I felt made our friendship stronger. It's just amazing how one bad day could just end it all. HE didn't give me what I was wanting from his friendship and I don't think that day he really cared. I do think he cares but I think sometimes people have their thoughts about things and can't look past the obvious. Maybe one day we can get back to where we were. I am not sure to be honest though. It's like the wounds are still opened. I am not perfect and I realize I could have handled things different. What I said in my blog that day may have been hurtful to him but I guess it was the truth. It would at least show that I don't approve of the things that he does. I know he doesn't approve of some things I do either. During the hard times, I knew what he was working so hard for and I tried to be there for him as much as I could. I still don't feel he should engage in a new relationship because it won't help him with what he is doing in school. I do want him to be happy and with someone very special but I feel a lot of these relationships are potential relationship are quickies and he will move on to the next. It's sad to say, just like what we had. It didn't last long at all but after some time away, we were able to maintain a good friendship. I do wish him the best in life and all that he strive to do. I know he will continue to lean and depend on God to help him through it all. I'm not here to judge or to say what is right or wrong because I am not perfect and God knows I have made terrible decisions. I didn't want that last angry black-woman post to be the last thing I wrote on here. :) God bless.